Still Waiting

Thursday, April 17, 2008

i'm so bored now, all i can think of is blogging about my cousin.

well, maybe let me start off with my childhood and my sisters.

when i was young, i was like every other average kid, who sings totally off-tune but still think that i sing damn well. perhaps this is in us or our environment, my sister often criticize that my singing totally sucked. and this creates a form of shadow in my childhood memories, and even till now, i swear i will not sing in front of my friends, or if i really need to sing, i will sing off tune on purpose. perhaps you guys think this is really lame and its just a small thing.

but once again, nothing is ever too small to affect you.

so i thought, if i ever have a younger sibling to care for, i will never say such things to him/her, thus forming a shadow that may never ever be removed from his/her heart.

since i'm the youngest in my family, the only younger 'sibling' i can care for is my cousin. (you know who u are lah, awkward to type your name =p)

i still remember the times when she stayed at my house, as her mum is busy working. i remember doing lots of things with her, and a small dainty haimei (only 3-4 years old)is always following behind me and copying whatever i do. though we do quarrel(i guess, since small kids always quarrel over playing but i never remember any of them) at times but the sense of protecting a younger sibling is always there. even till she's 20, she'll still be a young kid to me and i'll take care of her. now i figure out why parents always think they children are still small and need protection, hmmm.

relief teaching in prss is made fun partly due to my cousins in school, and i wish so much that time will stop for now, and i will get my deg fast and go back to prss when they're still sec 3 and 4 and i can be by their side. it's fun for them to see their cousin walking around in school right! haha. but anyway, let's not harp on the impossible.

now i see my cousin, a growing lady, with an attitude so similar to mine when i was her age, but knowing that she'll do fine and she'll grow older, prettier, and more mature. totally the opposite from the small haimei walking around the house playing with me, or the older haimei in primary school who learnt taekwondo and often poke my ass with her hand.(hmm...)

but anyways, she's taking her O levels this year. hoping so much that she'll do well, especially since she's in the same secondary school as me.

of course, not forgetting the shy boy haibing. though we seldom talk and stuff, i do care about your results and well being, so don't disappoint me ok? =)

loves my cousins forever.

-when are you coming back? ;